I’m in L.A trying to rest and network at the same time… I’m not quite balancing both so well because: confession: I’m kind of a covert workaholic!
Taking this step back allows me to see that I may be wonderful, but I am no Wonder Woman.
I have skills that have taken me far in my life and will continue to make me thrive in my own way.
I know it, I realize it, and I hear it when literally all of you talk to me about it.
I have an amazing support system, but time is allowing me to see the importance of surrounding myself in my projects.
I have dreams that scare me because they resonate so deeply within me, a fierce desire to create, to share, to create pretty, shiny things…
But without allowing space for community and the support that comes with it, I only lead myself to exhaustion.
I want so badly to create videos, inform and democratize the world of cosmetics.
I want so badly to share, include, and highlight beauties from minority backgrounds, those whom we ignore, those we choose not to see.
Like all entrepreneurs, I’ve sometimes also missed sleep to be able to push this brand where I felt it needed to go. This has in turn cost me the distance to make the best decisions as well.
For a few days now, I’ve been giving myself true, deep, uninterrupted rest but I am struggling to really let go of my tasks.
My business has become a machine that I felt ran automatically…boy was I wrong. I do everything, all the time, practically around the clock.
It’s for you, but it’s also for me… if I don’t do it, nothing moves forward (at least that’s my perspective).
Each day this week has brought a new way of thinking, a new system, and although I feel guilty, I know that I still have a lot to delegate to work better.
Fortunately, I have a constellation of wonderful friends who listen to me, support me, and encourage me. They are the stars on my path that I love so much.
The sun is setting in Los Angeles, PàPà the kitten where I am staying is making himself heard, he wants to play, and so do I, actually.
I’m 30 years old, it’s extraordinary, I decided it’s time. No more negotiations, balance and self-respect or nothing!
